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well i was sitting, waiting, wishing
you believed in superstitions
then maybe you'd seen the signs....

jack johnson

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thank you for the re-vote..

constitutional court has ordered to re-voting in south nias. it's a hot issue in this island. all the south nias legislators who already expected to sit on the local legislative is now asked to compete again. this verdict is an answer of the call of the massive violation over the election. kpu propinsi (provincial committe) has done re-calculating of all the votes. I do understand that's the only way kpu could afford. i actually was okay with that although not really satisfying.the election process in south nias was very dissapointing and frustrating to see how the vote fraud over here. i once warned the electoral committe but somehow the pressure over them plus their idealism could not stand stronger and thats what happened. and im very glad of the verdict. thank you...
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I've just discussed with Juliman Harefa. We supposed to have a meeting but somehow, nobody appears only two of us. What I like in him is his spirit, positive spirit. We talked about the establishing a 'new' network. the simple idea is how to gather nias concern into an action. how to make 'concern about nias' is meaningful, can do something for changing someone's life, rather than as just a merely moral concern. We started to explore the possibility of building that network. We are going to talk abt it next time again. But the idea is there.

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ford fellowship n visits

the interview as the last test for the ford fellowship was done. i think i passed the interview well, satisfying. i think the panelists were satisfying with my answers as well... and i'm waiting for the result. it would be announced in this coming august. i wish very much to be granted this fellowship. i do hope very much for that..

volker and nicky visited nias. they visited us in office, farmers groups and forniha as well. i'm happy with the visit. after been so long. i'd be very happy if there is a possibility to support the communities here.

earlier this month, anthony visited nias after 4 years. i was so glad. finally after four years. it was kind of token of completing the commitment together. it's been long. n we completed. for me, morally, for the commitment was accomplished. and he is still there and that's what i respect in him.

4 years in this island. a lot stories. a lot things happened here. a lot lessson learnt. in me, there is a part that wants me to stay longer. stay for more. and yes im very much thinking of wanting staying and being a farmer, a real farmer. we've been trying working with farmers for a while but still there is something that i could not get in. something i could not be in. i couldn't. i really would like to feel, to grasp, to experience the real fighting of their daily life. to survive. how to manage life day by day in their ways 'n how to get out of that circle of poverty. i was very much inspired by a story of a man, who graduated from university and instead of working for a big plantation there in sumatra-in which everybody would like to work there- he choose to return to nias and become a farmer. after years, he succeded and become a successful farmer. i met him in last 2006.


somehow, other part of me would like to move too. to 'recharge'. going for the grad school. to learn more things. at least to have capacity to reconstruct academically what i experienced and things. also, the purpose is to build network and access for bigger role in future. plus, for the regeneration of my organization leadership. i've been working here for a while and it won't be healthy if i stay longer. for leadership circulation. and i know i am on the track for this transition. from working in this island to be a student studying at campus again. i knew that i am going to go through this option for that grad school. i knew instictively that there will be a time of break to re-thinking, re-planning or re-mapping of my future. i need that too.


and this always happens, i think. when you are about to move to somewhere, you know that there were imperfect things on the last path. something you could do more, something you could make more but somehow it didn't happen.

the imperfect things that what it takes to make things perfect. is it? i don't know..

but very often i'm confused as well. apart of my high self confidence, i think, :) there is a part of me questioning of me. is it me that too ideal oriented, too outspoken, or basically out of common sense, stupid or might be not smart as others.. or am i too confident..?


i'm reading 'Poor Story' by Giles Bolton.
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arigato

that's the selected photos of visiting. mishop visited indonesia; nias and bukit lawang, of 2009. there are a lot stories to tell but i prefer to say that with pictures. thanks for the visit; hitomi, hiro, yuya, shoko, akane and yoji. thanks for nishida and all mishop members as well...

we did tracking over one night in the jungle..

and suddenly and orang utan caught yuya and spectacular...! i was between amazing, surprising, worrying in case something happen by that and kept taking the photo. combination of the senses..

we were lucky to meet many orang utan and we did not meet mina (orang utan named mina). a day before, a korean girl showed me her pic when mina took all her lunch and our guide was little bit traumatic to mina as mina once bite her.